I’ve decided that every problem I’m dealing with right now is due to a lack of patience on my part. Don’t get me wrong, I am a big fan of the journey. I mean, the past few years have been fantastic and I wouldn’t trade the lessons I’ve learned along the way. It’s just…sometimes I hate the inbetween stages.
Waiting for someone to realize their mistake, wondering what will happen if they never do, watching the things you want stay just out of reach, dreaming of a place you want to be way before you’ll be able to get there…
Naturally those type of things get to me. I’m only human. But I find myself saying over and over again, “I’m just impatient.” and I realize that the only reason it’s getting to me is because it isn’t happening fast enough. But I have to realize that it’s not time for those things to be resolved. Maybe someone will need another six months to realize they made a huge mistake. Maybe it will take years! There is no way to know. I have to deal with the fact that the process is part of the result.
My favorite bible verse talks about God knowing the plans He has for us. And the fact that the plans are great! It started out being a comfort to me and then I just fell into the same problem I’m having now. Impatience. Someone wise once told me that God doesn’t just plan those great endings. He plans everything that happens along the way. And to steal some song lyrics, “You can’t plan the end and not plan the means”.
I suppose that I have to be content with the fact that I am growing by leaps and bounds (according to Karla) and that maybe I’m growing a little faster than the world around me. I need to give it time to catch up.